Ooooo Blog,

Things are getting interesting.

I have joined an online writing course - which seems fun- lots of work but fun. Also I had no idea writers keep daily journals and free write all the time and listen to music...a whole new world!!! Hahahaha.

Secondly I might enter my novel for apublishing competition if I can pluck up the courage....

and thirdly we are booked to go to Cyprus on a holiday in a couple of weeks which means lots of ....flying........urk.

Can i do it all Blog????????

Can I fly more importantly....I did get to Paris without drugs or alcohol I have to remind myself- but that was only an hour..this is going to be 4 hours plus an hour hanging around in the plane whilst they load up more passengers and then another hour to northern Cyprus.

Oh help. No cigs for at least 8 hours.....on a plane...in the air...turbulance.....highjacks, bombs, turbulance, engine failure, wings falling off, shot down, mid air collision, turbulance.....why did I say I'd do it...oh my God.....

Courage is failing as I am ageing. Also I have a horrible lump in my thorat- which could be stress but at my age it could be cancer..of the throat, larynx, oesophagus, lungs...oh my I am a neurotic mess......Im off to the docs again on Monday- last time he said it was a viral thorat infection- well that was 2 months ago.

What to do? Panic panic. This could be cos as women get older they loose testosterone from their bodies. Testosterone keeps you courageous, bold, cutting edge. Help- I am none of these things......

I shall have to take supplements and grow body hair and have a deepened voice....

Ageing is not good necessarily.. you might get wiser, you might get less impatient, you might get more philosophical, you might become more in tune with yourself...but you get fatter, wrinkled, lose skin tone , your teeth start to thin, your hair does too, you go grey, you get ill..and you have to think about pensions just in case you survive beyond 60........

Shit.

C'mon Blog, cheer me up..say something palliative, soothing and comforting??????

No? Oh. Ok well cheers Blog..............

Hi Blog,

Well another week or so flown past.....this is what getting older does...time zips by ...lickety spit...and it will be Christmas soon. Already I am bombarded by catalogues for Christmas cards, Christmas presents etc. How many more Christmases do i have I wonder? In yoga apparently you have so many breaths in life and once you have breathed your alloted breaths thats it.....I am measuring my life span in Christmases?????? Help!!!!!

Thinking ahead like this makes time go faster....why cannot we be in the 'here and now' rather than the 'tomorrow, lets get it sorted'?

I cant cope.

And also whatever happened to the real meaning of Christmas eh? Where has that disappeared? Into someones advertising and marketing strategy.....hmph.

Anyhoos I am not getting on well with my book- this was/is to be my passport to another lifestyle and it is grounded in the calms of no-one is helping me find out about the film industry. Why are they so mean spirited? I have written, phoned and asked loads of folk for advice or to be able to spend a day on a film location shoot and I am getting no-where fast. Oh blue blue meanies........

Still, where there's a will and all that......

Perhaps some kind soul might read this and assist??????? ( I should be so lucky eh?)

Anyway must away now as the day is running out fast and I have lots to do.

See you again soon Blog.

Dear Blog

Well I said id be back sooner and Here I am!

Whilst the cats are away for their bonding weekend the mouse is playing- well not very much but some.

But driving around today what I wanted to put here relates back to the original concept ie being of a Certain Age.

I took the doggies out for a walk early this gorgeous September morning- down by the river again. Its very surreal down there when the sun is out- partly because the sun so rarely seems to shine here in the UK- and partly because of the colours. I am very succeptible to colours - especially after I went tripping once and the colours then were so surreal it was like it woke something in my brain which has never gone away.

Anyhoos- getting off topic here- the colours set me off noticing things again- and this was why is is that when you get older you look older no matter what you do?

There was this couple walking along- she had blonde hair, slim , dressed in trendy clothes and yet I still knew she was older- I only saw her from behind at first- but still I knew. And she was. So no matter how slim and trim us women keep oursleves, and no matter our hair colour or our dressing style- you can still tellwhen we are a Certain Age, and over.

Why?

And does this mean its a waste of money having liposuction and facelifts?


Hmmmmmm.

Im thinking about it Blog- spending the money that is !!! Hahaha.

Urk.

See you again soon

Ciao

Dear Blog

Now what did I say about coming on here more often??? Its time passing so quickly I can't keep up.

Still researching for my book- but not getting far in the finding out about getting on a film location set for a day.

If anybody does read this and they are involved in film production I'd really appreciate some help here???

Just had my birthday- another year older...another nail in the coffin....went to paris for a couple of days with my other half to celebrate our wedding anniversary and my birthday- had a lovely time. Its been 21 years since I was there- pregnant with Number 1 son and on our honeymoon..Its really nice and we did lots of culture and gastronomy as well as a little retail therapy.

And I managed on the plane with no drugs or alcohol ( well just a little bit of alcohol on the way out, but NONE on the way back). It was scary especially as we hit gusty winds and turbulance on the way back- but Im here writing this- so I survived.

Is it enough though for me to book a long haul destination?? Hmmm- not quite there yet.

Anyway nothing significant to report on the Certain Ages side of things as I am trying to avoid thinking about it really just at the moment. I need to settle in to my new age.....

Well, must go now.Try and get back sooner.

Ciao Blog