Ooooo Blog,

Things are getting interesting.

I have joined an online writing course - which seems fun- lots of work but fun. Also I had no idea writers keep daily journals and free write all the time and listen to music...a whole new world!!! Hahahaha.

Secondly I might enter my novel for apublishing competition if I can pluck up the courage....

and thirdly we are booked to go to Cyprus on a holiday in a couple of weeks which means lots of ....flying........urk.

Can i do it all Blog????????

Can I fly more importantly....I did get to Paris without drugs or alcohol I have to remind myself- but that was only an hour..this is going to be 4 hours plus an hour hanging around in the plane whilst they load up more passengers and then another hour to northern Cyprus.

Oh help. No cigs for at least 8 hours.....on a plane...in the air...turbulance.....highjacks, bombs, turbulance, engine failure, wings falling off, shot down, mid air collision, turbulance.....why did I say I'd do it...oh my God.....

Courage is failing as I am ageing. Also I have a horrible lump in my thorat- which could be stress but at my age it could be cancer..of the throat, larynx, oesophagus, lungs...oh my I am a neurotic mess......Im off to the docs again on Monday- last time he said it was a viral thorat infection- well that was 2 months ago.

What to do? Panic panic. This could be cos as women get older they loose testosterone from their bodies. Testosterone keeps you courageous, bold, cutting edge. Help- I am none of these things......

I shall have to take supplements and grow body hair and have a deepened voice....

Ageing is not good necessarily.. you might get wiser, you might get less impatient, you might get more philosophical, you might become more in tune with yourself...but you get fatter, wrinkled, lose skin tone , your teeth start to thin, your hair does too, you go grey, you get ill..and you have to think about pensions just in case you survive beyond 60........

Shit.

C'mon Blog, cheer me up..say something palliative, soothing and comforting??????

No? Oh. Ok well cheers Blog..............